EccentricLife

Good Afternoon friends! I can't believe its almost 2020, what's worse is I haven't blogged since 2018. I must apologize for the lack of blogging. It is great how life can sweep you off your feet and take you on so many journeys. Me and Sy had been trying to conceive while we were in England. Unfortunately It never happened even though we were hoping every month for a positive pregnancy test. So life goes on. We moved back to the States and I decided that maybe it be best I work on my career goals instead. It seemed like the opportune time to join the Air Force reserves, like I had talked to my husband about doing. After going to take the ASVABS, I had two choices laid in front of me. Do admin work or work in Space systems. I opted for the later because admin seemed too boring for me and also this path would open up more opportunities down the road. So I made the decision to do Space Systems but there was a catch I had found out later. Since my high school tra...

This post is gonna be me venting and writing out my struggles of 2018 so far. Which isn't usually my style. But I think it will be good therapy for me. Plus if you have been following me as a blogger and notice I fell of the face of the planet... here you will kinda get a glimpse of my life lately. Its been a hard year, to say the least. I am now finally not feeling so exhausted, but unfortunately, this new found energy will be short-lived. Which you will find out if you continue to read this post. I understand life is about living but also about death. And death hit home in January when my Grandpa passed away. This from an outside perspective figured it didn't affect me much. But that isn't the case for a person like myself( highly sensitive/empath ). Because even though I wasn't very close to my Grandpa(not by my choice), doesn't mean I don't care or feel sadness. And for me, I just didn't know how to feel. Its a confusion feeling of ...

So I moved to England last March... My situation is probably different then others who are considering living here. I moved here because my boyfriend at the time wanted to get more serious with me. We had chatted about what we would like to see our futures become. And they were inline with each others. We both wanted to start a family and he wanted to help me succeed in the Acting profession. I needed a little stability which he could provide. Plus we thought each other as attractive. So I spent all my money(believe it was good chunk of money) to get me and my dog Winchester out to England. That way we could make our relationship work.  We knew that if I came out to England, it would be a long term thing. So before I did all that we had already talked about marriage.   Fast forward to now. I am married to a military man, who I love, and slightly integrated into the UK community. I say slightly because currently I am a house wife only(I actually enjoy being a hom...

Who would have thought a religion could make you a orphan? Yes that's correct I became an orphan or "lost boy" after leaving the Jehovah's Witness religion. I don't even know how to discuss this topic. The pain I have experienced losing my biological family. All because I don't believe in their religion. On one hand I embraced who I was, but on the other I lost something very dear to me. I got to follow my heart and still do, which has been the best thing for me. I make up what I lost by loving the ones who stay in my life. They became my new family. But it isn't as thick as blood as the saying would go. When did it happen?  This happened after my first husband and I split. I told him I was no longer wanting to be a JW. How come you didn't just dis-associate yourself?(dis-associating is allowing JW's to still communicate with you) That is actually what I tried to do. I said I didn't believe in the religion but the Elders deci...

What does it mean to be an Empath. I think a lot of peoples ideas of the word are quite different. My meaning of the label maybe wrong, but hopefully it will resonate with some. Growing up I thought I might be one, but didn't really think I was that special(had low self esteem), so would always pass by the thought quickly. It was actually only quite recently that I truly believed that I was one. When you have a different ability then most, you think your parents would recognize it and you would get understanding from them. This was never the case for me. This last year three different people told me, they thought I was an Empath in the same month. That's when I was starting to see it being true. Here is a list of traits that I have that I believe are Empathic : Social anxiety(used to get sick thinking I had to go to school). Some times malls and busy streets can make you dizzy. Un-confrontational to the extreme. I would always feel guilty even though I needed to s...

Growing up I was very malleable. I wanted to be liked more then anything. So I didn't question the religion. Everyone else seemed to believe it.  This took some control of my life away from me.  I was a people pleaser. Also I never questioned what I wanted out of life or what makes me happy. But there come's a point in everyone's life that you are at a crossroad. I very vividly saw an image of myself living my day to day life I always had. And like a dream/nightmare I would wake up at an older age maybe around 50-60 years old and think how I have just blindly been miserable all this time. This started to become a reoccurring thought.  So then I had to ask my self, "Why am I soo miserable?" At this point I was married for about 4 years. I did enjoy some parts of being married at the time. I adopted a new family who was very lovely. But being young and inexperienced I felt unfulfilled. I thought "is this really it?" Work a 9-5 job that I hate, go to ...

Before I continue to talk about the struggles of growing up a Jehovah's Witness, I would like to talk about some of the great things there are when it comes to being a JW. Well there are none, LOL jk. No actually as I have grown into adulthood I have learned some valuable lessons and felt lucky to have been a JW growing up. One of the biggest things I attribute to being a Jehovah's Witness that was "honesty". Don't get me wrong not all JW's are honest. But it was definitely preached to be this way. And as I experienced more relationships either in friendship or partners I dated, honesty became huge in my life. If your not an honest person, I feel there is probably something lacking in your personality, possibly confidence or lack of guilt. So I feel my core values definitely came from being JW. And even if I get irate the likely hood of me doing any harm to someone is most likely in the negatives. I wrote about how I felt left out growing up in my la...

This maybe a long post... The main reason for me to want to talk about this is not enough people out there do. I hope that me writing about this will help anyone else who have gone through similar experiences, esp when it comes to being in a religion you may feel trapped in. Like most I found dwelling on the past to be too difficult so leaving it there seemed better. Its been about 9 years since I left that religion. . . Growing up wasn't bad I had thought. Even though holiday celebrations such as christmas, and halloween, were never celebrated, we still had a lot of wedding celebrations and anniversary's that we did celebrate. But the problem growing up in a religion like the Jehovah's Witnesses is they exclude you from a lot of experiences that others live early on in life. So instead of being able to make friends with classmates at school I was limited to only those who also are a JW. And instead of being able to do extra curricular activities at school I was l...

Wanted to post a few pics of my wonderful mini family 💖👫 + 🐾 I got this candid photo of my babies asleep on my lap!! 💗💗💗 This is a very recent photo from out movie date night out. We saw the new Kingsman movie. 🎥

A little about me. . . I decided I wanted write a blog, to put gathered info that I learn, out to the world. Soooo many times I find helpful information regarding health, spirituality, ect and I am like "wow, I wish I would have known that a long time ago." Of course I am not a doctor or expert(by worldly views) in any field currently. So somethings I post maybe common knowledge or  unorthodox. But I would just love 💗💚 to share from my own experiences that helped me on my own journey and maybe can do the same for you. I am 32 going on 33 this year and have come across health problems, as many do. So being a natural reader and lover of knowledge, I delve into the cyber world to find answers. Because I believe a holistic approach is always best, natural remedies is what I use first. Growing up we had a large family 8 kids for a total of 10. This is when I learned some valuable skills and some core values that stuck with me. I now enjoy cooking, gardening for produce...