EccentricLife

Who would have thought a religion could make you a orphan? Yes that's correct I became an orphan or "lost boy" after leaving the Jehovah's Witness religion. I don't even know how to discuss this topic. The pain I have experienced losing my biological family. All because I don't believe in their religion. On one hand I embraced who I was, but on the other I lost something very dear to me. I got to follow my heart and still do, which has been the best thing for me. I make up what I lost by loving the ones who stay in my life. They became my new family. But it isn't as thick as blood as the saying would go. When did it happen?  This happened after my first husband and I split. I told him I was no longer wanting to be a JW. How come you didn't just dis-associate yourself?(dis-associating is allowing JW's to still communicate with you) That is actually what I tried to do. I said I didn't believe in the religion but the Elders deci...

Growing up I was very malleable. I wanted to be liked more then anything. So I didn't question the religion. Everyone else seemed to believe it.  This took some control of my life away from me.  I was a people pleaser. Also I never questioned what I wanted out of life or what makes me happy. But there come's a point in everyone's life that you are at a crossroad. I very vividly saw an image of myself living my day to day life I always had. And like a dream/nightmare I would wake up at an older age maybe around 50-60 years old and think how I have just blindly been miserable all this time. This started to become a reoccurring thought.  So then I had to ask my self, "Why am I soo miserable?" At this point I was married for about 4 years. I did enjoy some parts of being married at the time. I adopted a new family who was very lovely. But being young and inexperienced I felt unfulfilled. I thought "is this really it?" Work a 9-5 job that I hate, go to ...

This maybe a long post... The main reason for me to want to talk about this is not enough people out there do. I hope that me writing about this will help anyone else who have gone through similar experiences, esp when it comes to being in a religion you may feel trapped in. Like most I found dwelling on the past to be too difficult so leaving it there seemed better. Its been about 9 years since I left that religion. . . Growing up wasn't bad I had thought. Even though holiday celebrations such as christmas, and halloween, were never celebrated, we still had a lot of wedding celebrations and anniversary's that we did celebrate. But the problem growing up in a religion like the Jehovah's Witnesses is they exclude you from a lot of experiences that others live early on in life. So instead of being able to make friends with classmates at school I was limited to only those who also are a JW. And instead of being able to do extra curricular activities at school I was l...